i dunno..

its been a pretty enjoyable afternoon.. we took photos, eat pizza, chocolate cake..
uuummmm who wldnt enjoy tt..
had pretty full stomach of laughter too..
no guys included thou.. haha..
juz 7 girls.. nth much to say abt it thou..
juz tt things seem to be a bit separated in the later part of the outing..
we had to go home early also.. tml got skol.. sian man.....


the fresh taste of clean air,delicious in ur mouth,filling up ur lungs;good.
u breathe it in,deep and in huge mouthfuls.
before there comes a day when the richness of that flavor is robbed from u.
before there comes a day when the richness is polluted by dirt,smoke,poison.
before there comes a day when ur heart will fail u and ur lungs will not pump with all its vigour.
u cant stop it.u cant make the taste return back to u.and when that day do come.
u're helpless.and all ur past returns back to u.as flashes.ur whole life is like an old film;
reeling with a life of its own.speeding in ur head.n u cant stop it.
no.u cant make it stop,or pause so that u can admire smth there.
ur wrongs and ur rights.ur good and ur bad.will all be revealed.
but only to u.only to ur own eyes.u'll feel the guilt,the pride in every one of ur actions.
the pp in ur lives.ur influences on them.ur actions on them.everything.
everything.will be revealed when u die.when u breathe ur last breath.





be optimistic-tts how i lead my life.
seems like i've influenced some pp too.interesting.

laugh... friendships.. farts..

goodness.. it feels like weeks since i last blogged..

been busy stressing myself out for today's physics mock exam..

feeling pretty confident of it.. hopefully i'll do well.. ;)

got so many things in my mind to write abt for the past few days..

but now tt i'm at the keyboard, my mind seem blank..

lemme try and unravel the huge pile of junk in my brain..

i hate being laughed at.. that is the most downgrading feeling i can ever be put to..

its alrite to me if my frens laugh at me. cos i know how selfish and lowly they can be.

colleagues and frens are not worth keeping if they're insensitive to other's feelings..

but u... u've been given the key to my emotions. the only key to my heart..

tts why i cant stand making funny faces. cos pp will laugh at me.

unless i wan them to laugh. unless they're meant as jokes.

but wat if they're not??

wat if i was trying to make my face and behaviour do smth tt is out of my normal behaviour?

wat if it was not meant to be a joke..

i did ask y u laugh, did i not??

was it so funny?? did u enjoy laughing at me??

u did rite? cos i looked so funny.. cos i looked so cute.. and u wanna make my screwed up face too..

dont tell me u were feeling sorry for me.. cos there was nth to feel sorry abt.

u know. u know. n yet........

anyways............................... its done and over with..

friendships are self-expressive..

they are created naturally when beings come together..

bonded in special ways.. different from others..

this sunday.. we'll be celebrating joyce's and deep's birthday..

its juz one day..

with two birthdays.. is it really that difficult to come down and have fun?

have friendships cultivated over the past yrs crumbled to dust?

u dun wan to feel tired..

wont we all feel tired too? how abt nicole who have to work after that?

dont u know? y r u being selfish?

its juz a day.. we all know how we've divided..

how we all have changed in the timespan of a yr plus..

how we have forgotten abt each other's traits and characters and personality..

we may be in the same skol. but we seldom see each other.

and even when we do, we have nth to say to each other.

bcos we have lost tt commonplace we use to share.

haven we all made tt silent promise? to stay together forever.. as best frens for life?

we arent juz ordinary frens.. we're best frens..

the best of the bestest.. the bestest of the best..

it hurts me to have to convince u to sacrifice juz a day for ourselves..

has it really been that tough to remain as best frens??

are u starting to forget us??

fart: is or are one of the by-products of the formation of human waste in our intestines. pungent smelling air released for the anus.

farts: plural for fart. pockets of pungent smelling air of various volumes. measurement of quantity of farts is not specific thus the existence of the word farts is ambiguous.

just my definition of farts.. hehehe..

An Album

Good times are found in the pictures of an album.

Bad times, in between them.

posing posing..

my soccer captain...... action banget nye dia.. hehehehe..

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i had an interesting day..

i heard 2 stories of tragic relationship break ups-juz today alone.
and another one a few days back..
the first one-saw her bf walking in town wid another girl.
ouch.. he lied to her saying he's gotta work.. and stupidly she saw him wid a fat minah in town..
so poor ting.. i dun exactly rmb wat she did to him when she saw thou..
(i'm getting a bit too old so been having memory problems.. hehe..)
but i know it happened like last week.. so it was pretty recent and the hurt still gotta be there..
poor girl..

the other one is my mcs vice president..
she was attached to the most eligible bachelor of cjc.. ( i tink ah.. )
and she was dumped.. on their 1yr anniversary..
reason? he needed space for himself. from the way i heard the relationship was for the 1 yr..
it hadnt been smooth sailing.. he's pretty flirty.. and since he's the hockey team captain..
its not a surprise.. and-he throws his tempers ard.. he doesnt look like the sort of person on the surface..
but on the other hand.. i hardly knew him.. cos he's personality sucks? (my personal opinion)

as for yanni.. life still has to go on.. i hope she'll be over it soon.. den she can indulge herself in her shopping spree again.. haha.. such a shopaholic.. ;)



HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
someone's 18 already ah...............................
so now left me n jing who are still 17..
weeee................... somebody can go clubbing adi!!!!
legally somemore...
hahahaha...
such a coincidence it falls on racial harmony day yea babe..
dint get a chance to give u a hug today..
was too busy manning the mcs booth.. hehe..
oh oh.. u look gorgeous in that saree.. even thou i only saw a glimpse of u..
hehe..
miss u lots babe.. catch up wid u soon kz.. take care bum bum..




racial harmony day.
busy busy busy.. the wedding ceremony performance was excellent..
the bride and groom were so beautiful ah...
i was ssssooooo jealous...............!! i keep telling reseena(my treasurer/secretary) tt i wanna get married tml..
juz so tt i can wear all those pretty dresses... grrrr....
the whole performance was so grand.. with the kompang and the dais(pelamin) and the mak andam..
hehe.. shikin did a great job acting as the mak andam.. so very suitable for her.. hahaha..
after the performance was the selling of food at the mcs booth.. large scale event..
so busy and crowded.. we were selling satay, fried chicken, fried noodles, otah-otah.. etc..
so yummy... was so hungry and tired.. been wearing heels the whole day ah..
but i was pretty disappointed cos most of the j1s were so lazy to help!!!!
except for a few-donny, shikin, nashata, atiqah, and some guys who were helping to cook the satay n otah..
very very thankful for them..
sigh.... i cannot wait to step down.. so lazy and tired of mcs adi..
hahaha.. and today i had to wear malay kebaya..
was not allowed to wear anything else-cos i'm the president so muz wear malay costume.
watever la..
so i chose this totally white one from my older sis who's ard the same size as me.
it was juz a simple plain white long kebaya.
i dint expect pp to say tt i look good. but surprisingly i had invitations to take photographs wid students i dun really know.. haha.. i feel so honoured.. heE.. n i receive compliments too tt i look elegant..
i'm trying to be humble here but i juz cant help boasting.. hehe.. its a rare opportunity.. ;p



alrite.. so i guess tts all i have to update.. (i tink.. maybe i forgot another ting.. but its ok..)

Dear Doink

Factors that increase the risk of coronory heart disease:

1. Inproper diet
2. Stress
3. Smoking

The fact is that you're a smoker and as a smoker, you should at least know one of the chemicals contained in your cigarettes. The one that you and I should be interested to talk about is nicotine.

Now nicotine is the addictive drug that is present in the tobacco. It makes blood clot easily. Therefore, it increases the risk of blood clots blocking the blood vessels. If such clots block the coronory arteries, a heart attack may occur.

Next, I've seen you trying hard to lose some flabs. That's very good. Just to let you know, a proper diet is important in reducing the risk of atherosclerosis which often begins early in life. A diet rich in saturated animal fats should be avoided. It should be substituted by polyunsaturated plant fats. The latter may lower the cholesterol level in the blood.

So having stress in your office will conclude that you have 60% chance of having a heart attack. Take care, kak.

From BioPuss.

part and parcel...

and he bought me a new pair of earrings................................!!!
its not cheap.....cos i rmb the price from the last time i saw it...
most expensive pair of earrings i've ever had...
and i love it.. so pretty..
and i tink joyceh will love it too.. cos its white and pink..
heE... ;)


sent my new, 3 week old 7270 hp for servicing yst..
i hate the officer who was serving me..
a malay mat. who is so slow.............................. and seems to be too afraid to talk straight to me.
I'M THE CUSTOMER! YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT MY HP! NOT TO MY BF!
asshole. i asked him to help me transfer my contacts to my sim card.
and he looked at me like i was talking gibberish. AND! he dint transfer my contacts.
i was too pissed to bother talking anymore. great. so i lost all my contacts, my photos, my downloads. grrrr..............................
bad customer service.. if they had given me a feedback form, i wld have written down as much negative comments as i can think about...
i miss my phone....................................................



i almost made him cry...
so sorry... i was so frustrated that day..
what with that stupid malay man and the busy crowd in orchard rd..
so i got annoyed and irritated at his slightest mistakes..
like keep wanting to hold onto my hand even when it was so crowded and i cant walk properly..
so i got pissed and juz let go of my hand.
and lots more of that la..
but i guess our tension lessened as we travelled further away from town..
we got better..



tts it. i'm goin to work harder!!! grrr...
after failing all my subjects with FFFFFFFFFFssssssssssssssss..............................
i'm not goin to have that alphabet anywhere in my dictionary again...
HMPH!
hehehehe.. i'll try my best la.
;)

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Emotion Limits

The conjunctiva's lubricated by tears secreted by the lacrimal/lachrymal or tear gland. The tear gland lies in the outer corner of the upper eyelid. The tears that it produces flow out between the eyelids and the exposed part of the eyeball, helping to reduce friction when the eyelids move. Dust particles entering the eye usually cause greater production of tears which wash them away. Excess tears drain naso-lacrimal/lachrymal duct, which runs from the inner corner of the eye to the nose. Emotion may cause excess tears to be secreted and passed into the naso-lacrimal/lachrymal duct so that one experiences a "running nose" or even overflow, causing "crying".

It's okay for men to burst into tears.

surprise surprise...

argh..........................!!
he is so sweet.......................
he gave me a surprise today....

he bought me a lovely pair of slip-on shoes...
light blue in colour..
(TT)
i cant bear to wear it..
its so lovely...


i was actually looking ard trying on the shoes in a shop wid him a few days before..
and him being a nice gentleman was telling me which is nice and which is not on me..
which i find is pretty rare and difficult for a guy to do that..
i'm lucky to get someone who can tahan a woman shopping.. heE..
and i particularly found that light blue slip-ons very pretty..
however i dint get them cos i juz wasnt... interested to buy then...

and den today he wanted to mit me after work..
saying he's got a surprise for me..
hmmm... was wondering wat it was all the way to toa payoh..
and i totally forgot all abt it when i saw him..
miss him so much even thou we juz met yesterday..
and den he gave it to me at macdonalds..
argh...........!! i almost cried...
its not the price or the item that moved me..
i juz dunno how to say it..
its the thought that he was actually thinking abt getting it for me.. i tink tts wat i'm trying to say..

sigh... this is not the only one..
how abt all those times when i'm sick (which is pretty often) and he'll come over to my place wid my favourite old chang kee chicken wings (only sold at toa payoh).
and all those times tt i always scold him "shut up la" and he nv seems to be mad abt it..
and abt the incidents of me wid another guy and so on.. and he nv left me..
sigh.........................



kinda mushy isnt it.. hehehe..
but wat to do... he's juz so sweet..
no no baby.. u're not handsome..
u're my prince charming.. and my cute peanut head..
with tt lil pimple near ur cheek.. heE..
ah... and tt unruly curly hair.......! so messy..................
i dun like guys wid messy hair u know..
they look SOooooo untidy....

Wonder-wonder

"Jangan bingit lah."

Senang je Shalih dengar By cakap.

Kalau Shalih buat By marah kan, susah seh Shalih nak pujuk.

Tapi bukan selalu lah.

Kadang-kadang je.

By kalau dah marah kan, By marah habis punye.

Tapi nie bukan satu masalah lah.

Shalih cume wonder-wonder je.

End

been blundering my life around..
so many wishes so many dreams..
how the hell did i end up in jc?
i'm juz another girl in that light blue uniform, in that blue skol, looking at her blue table.
2 more months to prelims..
4 more months to my a's..
great.. and my skol work is way way way behind hidden somewhere at the back of my head..
its a definite absolute huge Fs written in my mid yr report card..
i'm worried.. yea hell i am..
but i'm juz not in the momentum of studying yet..
the pressure is still building up.. not yet ready to unleash itself on my brain cells.
its always been abt the notes.. always the notes.. chemistry, physics, maths.. GP.. gawd...



i long for the day when i can break away from my family..
to survive on my own.. to have my own room for once in my life..
to have space for myself.. to clean up all of my own mess and not others..
to have no one nag at u to do things.. there's no pride in having accomplished smth u were forced to do..
i wanna be... juz myself.. not tt i dun love my family..
i love them.. a lot.. but.............
i wldnt have to clean up their mess for them..
i wldnt have to listen to their complains of our faults and not theirs.
i wldnt have to listen to my mum's criticisms of all her children.
me and my sis wldnt have to be the black sheeps for every fault at home.
i'm complaining here.. cos i cant do this back at them..
its juz respect..
and respect is wat i've learnt to give..
but respect is seldom wat i get from them...
nevertheless.. my dreams are for myself.. to prove to myself..
my independence is for my well being..
i feel happy being independent.. i feel pride in doin things for myself on my own..
i solve my problems myself.. i handle my finances myself..
i'd really rather live by myself.. and not depend on my mum..
not tt i tink its a burden to her.. but i tink she'll be happier if me and my siblings grow up quick n get out of her hse..
tts wat she always say.. its her hse.. and we're juz guests..
isnt she such a great mum???
oh.. dont ask abt my dad.. he's far far better...
i wish he'd juz leave me in my own world..
hahaha..

That Old Chang Kee

Today.

July seven.

Boring and dull.

http://www.maximonline.com/girls/jessica_alba_2/gm_l3.jpg

I can travel on bus to anywhere for free nowadays using my concession and I wanted to come over to suprise you with food from Old Chang Kee this evening. I had a second thought about it, but there was too much blind deers in my head for me to think. In the end, I had no idea what to do next once I'm over there. I would just be wasting both our time together so I'ma as well stay at home for the rest of the day and turn in early while I'm at it. I can just find another chance, another opportunity. I promise you that for I am the one who fell in love with your heart that cares back initiatively. Unique without any will.

the beauty within...

first day of skol from such a long long holiday..............
felt great to be back but... not back with tons of hw waiting to be done..
rushed straight home after skol cos someone was waiting for me patiently under my block..
he's been waiting since 12 plus? until 3? when i reached home..
den he still have to wait for me to change and leave somemore..
and since my bro was home, i had to wait till he leaves before i can change..
luckily it wasnt long..
so i hurriedly changed and left to meet him..
felt so bad to make him wait for so longggg........
dun wanna annoy him also so i juz kept my mouth shut..
den went to shaw plaza to watch war of the worlds.
we were both a lil indecisive abt it since there werent any other interesting shows..
but we went ahead and it turned out to be fabulous..
so scary seh... felt so touched at the actors' actings..
it was all great...
den after tt went to study down at macs at tp..
he made me laugh so much my head hurts..
it was so fun...
its been so long since i had a good laugh..
and its been so long since i heard him laugh out loud too..
it felt refreshing.. and juz pure fun..
i cld see in his face how much he was enjoying making me laugh so hard..
i cant rmb wat was so funny thou.. haha..
i cant tahan the pain from my head adi from all the laughing so i had to stop..
and he massaged my head a lil..
i dunno y it hurts thou.. juz hope its nth serious..
den we studied for a while and left cos we were too tired adi..
from skol and walking ard..
he sent me home.. since he's got concession adi..
yup yup..

and all the way he's been so sweet to me..
smiling and all and telling me tt he's fine and he'll do this and he'll do that..
and making me smile and laugh and happy too..
it feels juz like old times hunny..
we had so much fun from trying to guess wat movie was directed by some director..
sigh... he's such a sweet bf..

somehow i happen to have taken him for granted lately..
but he's been patient to me and we're still v much in love..
and i'll aspire to be juz as patient a he is..
hehehe.. and less whiney.. but i have been less whiney have i not sweets???
and i have been more patient rite.....??
hehehehe...

penguins

they lost their igloo.. will someone help them find?

I Like The Way You......

I'm trying hard to create a post without anyone commenting on it.
I'm doing so good at it, so far.

Listen, I'm sorry if I've been missing in action these past few days.
I'm just busy with polytechinc at the moment.
Studies, assessments, assignments and projects had to be done.
Now that I'm here, so what good or/and bad news did I bring in along with me?

I have only good news though.

My cousin have requested me to create political drawings so that she can publish them in September's issue on her online magazine.

She's a big fan of my drawings. Now that is what I call family support.

Seeing my drawings being published would be very cool indeed.

I got selected for the Adonai League 2005, but it's stupid because I'm one of the best.

How can I not get selected??

Boasted......

I had a bad soar throat the other day and I lost my voice, but now I got it back.

Testing voice, testing voice, 1, 2, 3.

Eva Mendes have pinned down Jessica Alba for the moment.

The leading, as some people would like to call it, Fetish Idol, was rewarded with her own picture being co-posted in bluesnub.blogspot.com.

Wait.

Let me find her picture.

There it is.

Oh my gosh.

I feel Madagascarian now.

Ali G?

Would you like to sing your song with me?

Hahahaha.

So I guess that would be all for tonight.

You guys have fun, alright?

I will definitely see you guys again with more new hopefully.

Anyways, Khad, you're still my number one.

I wish my girlfriend would ask me for a threesome.