update..

had the last paper for my mid-yrs.. sigh...
regret.. i shld have studied harder.. i cld have completed the paper........
sigh.............
its over... done...
broke for this whole week.. so sian..

we kinda got off on the wrong track of each other lately..
hopefully things will get better for us...
nth much to update..
juz hoping my financial situation will get better..
now tt my uncle wans me to teach tuition for his kids..
and now tt i'm having a part time job also at prudential..
sigh...........

i hope my a's are looking bright.........................
gotta juggle studies, bf, family and work...
life's good.. ;)

If I was given a chance again, I'd do it all the same. Dislocated elbow and all. But I'm getting up there upon you down there. I left it the right way. Now watch me rise out of reach. I'm the best in town. Respect the difiendori. 

urgh... exams...

damn it.. my holidays wasted.. gone juz like that..
wat the hell did i do wid it?
i dint even study hard, let alone work hard to earn money..
i dint even get to slack much!
this is not fair....................
sigh...... mid-yr exams in like 3 days time?
hahaha.. and i'm not even studying enuf..
bla... watever la.. i wont be suprised if i failed my papers..
i wont be surprised if my mum have to come down to skol to see my teachers again..
grrrr........... i'm lazy..... and i dun have any mood to study..
yea yea i'm grumbling.. i know.. i know that i shld be studying now..
i know that i shld be working hard for the last few days also..
but i gave up... its only the mid-yrs..
guess i only have a few more months to my a's..
before i can get out of this stupid skol..
and then i can really decide wat to do wid my time..
for now.. its juz me and my books.. oh yea.. my bf also..
sigh............ i hate subjects...
wat does physics, chemistry and maths mean??

How can I forget to post this screen capture? 

Dedicated to the inexperience. 

Butt tight or tight butt? Next year's resolution. 

The Senses

Sitting infront of the school library computer on the comfortable blue chair, hitting the keyboard buttons to type this sentence.

Brrr. It's getting cold because of the air-conditioning which I think is switched on to full blast by the naughty librarians. Everybody is chilling in here, pretending it's snowing. With their jackets and snow caps on, I think they're ready to go ice skating. Hmmm. Wonder where are all the polar bears.

I feel for pizza today. Asked her to come along. It's either a get well soon treat or I'm just plain hungry and I need someone to finish up the left overs. Yeahhh. She's been sick. Nothing is better than eating pizza with her.

Man, I smell gas...... Yo, this place is air-conditioned lah! You're polluting the whole area, man. Come on! Show yourself! Grrr. Now I'm starting to think that it came from me. I think it did.

Oops!

i love them all!! 

pweettyy pwweeettyyy bbrraaacceeyyy jjooyycceeeyyy 

sentosa!!! 

on the trip back.. 

i guess its bad news..

u expressed it all..
expression, emotion, body language..
i guess this is it..
the pain that we have to go thru
the happiness that we share
i guess it'll all end
yeah.. maybe we will..
continue again..
someday..
when we're both ready
hopefully..
i'm so very sori for wat i'd done to hurt you..
hope u'll get better soon..
till then..

false alarm..

since the time i woke up
i got a bad feeling
abt something-something ah, but i dunno wat..
so i juz chucked it aside..
woke up early, went to have breakfast wid my mum at the market and heard all the neighbour aunties blabbering abt my family.
anyways..
went to harbourfront to meet up wid the girls..
so all along there was this annoying THING tugging at the back of my head.
but i juz dunno wat it is.
had a great time wid them at sentosa.
sun tanned but my skin dint get any different.
after that left early cos nicole got work and we were dead shagged too.
went to meet him-who was late..

this is wat he smsed me..
oh my princess, your dark knight is having a problem choosing a horse! Your hero doesn't know what the numbers written on their behinds mean.. There is this horse, numbered 155, there is another-numbered 159. Finally, a horse just volunteered to join your fearless lover in the epic to rescue you from the evil count rot! A horse numbered 28! Gee-dee-yap, horsey!!

my goodness.. i was freaking hungry and walking ard aimlessly waiting for him..
finally..... he came.. but the msg is so cute la.. hehe..

went to study wid him.. and the day wore on..
den when i was on the way home in the bus, i got that terrible feeling again..
it was so bad.. i felt so extremely worried abt something i dun even know..
i almost wanted to cry in the bus..
rush all the way home.. entered the house in tears and rushed to my mum and sister..
they saw me crying and asked wat happened..
and i asked whether my bro and younger sis got call back home..
cos they're both in kl. on separate trips. their answer was no and they dint believe anything i say..
i tried to explain smth i also dunno..
goodness.. call shalih and he calmed me down..
told me to call my bro.. but i dint.. dunno why.. i juz wont call him..
den soon enuf i stopped crying altogether. and there! my bro is home..
like? wat a coincidence? i dunno wats wrong wid me.. maybe it was really juz pure coincidence..
sigh...
anyways..
he came back wid lotsa goodies.. bought me and my lil sis t shirts. my older sis and mum-wallets.
and lots of food!!
tml my sis is coming home..
at least i feel better now..
no more tears.. ;)

News. Good Or Bad? You Decide.

I'm thinking we should stop. Right here. Right now. Hopefully we'll continue later on, in our life. I don't wish it to be soon. Yeah. I'm speaking the truth. I don't know about you but I'm already getting sore. How do I know? I touched myself. Felt myself. Hear what my heart has gotta tell me. I don't know how you'll feel after this but I hope you'll feel the same way too. I'm really sorry even though there's nothing to apologise about. So yeah. We will. Together. Someday.

Sometimes clocks may stop ticking.

my bad day..

i hate....
hate...
hate...
hate...

i am full of disappointment, pain, anger and hatred..

i'm hurt..

still..
since yesterday, today and tml and the day after.. and the day after..
and i dunno how long it'll take for me to recover..

betrayed.

ouch...................................

great.
where did he go?
i dunno.
dint even tell me.
great.
no calls tonight.
great.

great.
i'll juz shut myself down for this entire week.
i wanna tell you.
i hate you.
but i cant.
cos i love you.
this is worse than breaking up.
argh..

sigh...........

ouch...............

i know u had good intentions..

i juz cant help feeling so sad and broken..

it hurts so bad..

i cant help crying.. after all that i've been thru..

after all that we've done..

sigh.... nvm hunny...

i know wat u had to do..

we had no choice..

but i still wanna cry..

cos i feel so sad....

i feel so terrible......

dun worry k..

i'll be fine..

i juz cant believe it..

gd nite sweetie..

i love you..

Pfft

I'm an asshole. Leave me alone.

blog blog blog!!!!!!!

its raining outside and i'm supposed to go study wid jing..
but here i am blogging..
why??
cos i wont be here often in the next few months to type out all my shit
a lvls coming and i'm feeling....
none of the pressure??
cos its the holidays...............
so lazy to study la.. but muz la..
my mid yr papers on the 1st day of skol seh..
grrrr...
sigh..
been having pasta for breakfast for the past few days..
enjoying myself putting on weight
but today my pasta supply finish adi but too lazy to go and buy also..
i'm goin to miss blogging.. (T.T)
so here i am juz crapping my head off cos i'm waiting for the rain to stop
i'm too lazy to bring an umbrella out anyway..
so tml's primary skol gathering is postponed to next week
no problem for me.
he's not goin to see me these few days i guess.
goin to be busy wid studying.
as for the problems we've been having lately..
its juz so weird how it all started.
and its the same ting over and over again
i juz dun understand the rules of blogging
am i wrong to bitch in my own blog?
anyways.. wats done is done.
its funny how they draw the line now and say u mind ur own life and i mind my own.
wasnt that how it was last time?
until some big mouth made some fuss and spread it all ard...............
watever la.. at least now i know who i can trust..
i learnt smth new this week..
and i'm proud of it..
sigh.. so the rain is lighter now..
and i can go see my darling gf..
chao!

blast my weekends!!!!!!

oh i have fallen down thus far
these bruises on my shin, knees and ankle
hurting me so bad; i wan to cry out
exposing my raw flesh; trying in vain to cover it up
physically, i've been brutalised;
mentally i've been torn apart
with threats to my brain; screaming in my eardrums
why am i tormented this way?
is this the retribution i've waited thus long?
with open arms i embrace my destiny.

fallen so deep, my adrenaline dries out

i've tire myself, trying to calm my nerves

if only we cld have cleared it properly

none of this wld have happened

if only words; innocent and harmless

were not carried away

by the neurons excited by our soul

i've been lying dormant in my slp

to be awaken by little flashes of light in my eyes

are these signs? an omen to come?

i've fallen down, trying hard to climb up again

families are involved

blood ties tested for endurance

there is no need to flash my pain

it's scarred all over my skin

there's no nd to tell others

my activities behind closed doors;

it's clearly scribbled in my life

if u so need to know, do come for tea with me.

i've created a hole in my head; so i can display all my treasures

doesnt tt sound sick?

i juz dun understand

there is no problem

there is no problem at all

but there is!

it was supposed to be gone

a long long time ago

i've dug up all the memory banks in my head

every cell, every nerve, none holds anything

till the time we lie dormant again.

its me who broke the vase mum. ME!

why r u scolding lil sister??

i wanna be scolded mum! here! scold me......

dont scold her! she's innocent!!!

its me

why scold others?

why blame others?

come to me. scold me. slap me. scream at me.

its my mistake.

i'll face the music

y have u no idea at all?

i've been falling, falling, again and again.

no, u have no idea at all.

u tink u know me so well.

u have no idea at all; none at all.

anyways.. went to see his skol today..

walked ard nanyang poly..

feel so awkward seh.. so many pp..

sua ku mah.. pardon me la..

walk walk walk..

the skol is so warm..

fountains here and there..

he say its to keep the skol cooler..

it had better be la..

den after that went wid him to beach rd to go buy safety boots

cos he lost his.

den walk walk walk

after tt go eat sup tulang!!! grrr...

i feel so carnivorous.. hahahaha..

meat meat meat!!

so embarrass seh.. eat so messy..

but its nice and it tasted good so who cares la.

pretty late adi so we both chao home..

both of us got a long day tml also.

he's got skol.

i've got extra lesson(groans....)

and whitley npcc pop nite!!! yayayayayay!!!

so long nv see my old npcc mates and teachers..

i miss whitley..........................

looking forward to enjoy gd food and a whole nite of singing and screaming tml..

weeeeeeeeee..............!!

saturday got my primary skol class gathering..

been ages since i last saw them!

like 6 yrs?! blast it..

hahahaha..

sunday got sentosa outing wid my bestybesty buddies!!!

FINOA!!!FONAI!!!!FINAO!!!!!FIONA!!!!!

i miss u la babe... sunday faster come!!

wat-ever la..........

i did mention i'm not goin to pursue the matter..

if u wanna flirt with whoever in the world..

be it the ugliest geek or the oldest man

i dun give a shit abt it..

u wanna flirt with my bf?

by all means......... go ahead la..........

flaunt ur assets..

show off ur sexy bum

all i can say is.. "good luck"

i wanna watch how far u can get with my bf..

u loser..

u're the one making the huge fuss

not me

or even shalih

as for that loser who still waste his time

reading our blog, searching for our weakness

grow up

childish freako

still trying hard to break us huh

go on la, try ur best

i wanna watch u break sweat

it'll be so much fun

immature arsehole

living in a dump of beer and tobacco

u can tell her all the shit u spew out of ur mouth

oh oh!! and tell her that u and her DONG DONG BOYFRIEND drink beer together..

hahahaha.. wldnt that sound nice??

i wonder wats her reaction?

oohhh... maybe she knows already..

nah..... i dun tink so..

they're forever quarelling..

some interesting couple

the gf wont allow the bf contact other girls

the gf herself flirts behind his back

so funny to watch these 2 together.

aahh... u can now call me a bitch, a slut, an arsehole..

watever beautiful vulgarities u have in ur vocabulary

if u have the guts, tell me straight in the face den.. why not??

it'll be so much fun to see ur screwed up face spewing foul words pouring on my head

it aint my fault all this started rite??

or is it......?

hahahaha..

interesting how i can be confronted with losers juz cos of wat i post in my blog..

oh come on......... now u wanna shoot my bf juz cos of wat i wrote??

are u too afraid to confront me yourself??

ooo..... i'm so scared..

hahahaha..

why scold shalih when i'm the one who's criticising you??

why scold him when i'm the one who hates YOU!

hahahahaha..

this is so fun..

u started the ball rolling..

its my turn to make sure it continues..

and i'll make sure it never stops..

go on.. call me if u dare..

hehehehe..

oh oh! pls put this is in ur head and never forget..

i'm not a nice girl.

so dun tell me how mean i am..

and once again..

i will repeat myself

i will not pursue this matter.

.

life

we are individuals

existing as a single being

with a separate mind, heart and soul

we meet

our paths crossed

our destiny intertwined

we love

each other

our own lives

every personality and character of the other

we become one

we begin

on a new journey

one that we made together

full of obstacles, hardships and pain; a pessimistic view

full of love, joy and happiness; an optimistic view

this is life as we see it

it has its ups and downs

with every obstacle

we receive joy, satisfaction

fulfillment and confidence

we can say "we made it thru together"

this is the test of our love

a test we have to go thru as human beings

challenges our very morality

that threatens to pull us down into depression once we lose hope

once we lose faith and give up

so whats the point of life? and love? if it hurts?

we are all here to learn

life has many faces

and it has many doors

its just a matter of how many doors we want to open

and how many faces we want to see.

Logging On

I'm in the school library now using the computer. My next class is at 10. There is homework to be done and handed in. I've done it, but I forgot that I'm supposed to hand it online. Sigh. New age, new technology. But it's good lah. I hope I won't get any scoldings. *Slaps* This is nothing like secondary school anymore lah, Shalih, so come on. Relax.

.

.

.

I guess I'll just lie that my computer's having problem sending e-mails lah.

Hee!

busy busy busy..

juz quit my stupid job..

which has a damn bloody good pay..

but the job is tough..

freaking tough..

imagine having to go to ur relatives and persuade them to buy health products from u?

doesnt sound tough..

but its damn bloody freaking tough for me..

like wat the hell would i want to contact my relatives for?

when we're all at a lifetime war?

anyways.. need to study study study nowadays..

looking for another temp job..

hopefully more worth my time..

i dunno wat to blog..

miss all my best frens..

i dunno wat missy joyce babey is doing..

i heard fiona babey is back in singapore but i haven seen even her nostrils yet..

hehehe..

i dunno wat happen to nicole also..

muz be busy wid skol and work.. understandable..

arjun chimpanzee is back in India now..

shu jing the crazy woman is still as bored as ever..

hahaha.. at least she's the only one i'm still seeing often enuf..

yup yup..

all my darling sugar ladies.. pls dont forget ur noisy gf here too yea..

i know u guys are busy busy busy with the great s'pore sale

and ur skol, and social life too..

juz like me..

hehehe..

just got back from east coast today..

a family outing.. which consists of my two sisters and ME.

it was so fun..

even thou its only my younger sis and me..

sorta like a bonding session for the both of us..

everyone thinks we're twins..

cos we're so close..

but she still acts like a little girl..

so excited and annoying at the smallest tings..

even thou she's turning 16 soon..

talk abt being childish..

hehehe..

there were skimmers too..

they were so tanned.... and dark........

very dark..

and talk abt flabs..

hahaha.. trying to show off the invisble muscles..

one of them look like YOU baby!!!

hehehehe.. so tanned and tall and skinny..

i tot its really u..

cos the hair like same same ah..

hehehe..

i wanted to go to him and give him a kiss or a hug..

i wasnt wearing my specs so eyesight a bit sod sod la..

hehehehehe..

i'm not so blur as to walk up to some guy who looks like my bf and hug him la..

"BY!!! what are you doing here??!!! i tot u're at home???!!!!"

hehehe.. he'd juz stare.. with the words

"YOU'RE NUTS"

zooming past his eyes..

heheheh..

wanted to collect seashells but high tide..

den all the waves keep washing off the beach.. so dint get much..

disappointed yea..

but all in all..

i really enjoyed myself..

so fun..

forgot how relaxing and invigorating the beach can be..

weee...

next visit will be wid....................................

see how ah..

heheheh..

Pssst!

You know something?

I don't know what to post about.

And this, this is not counted.

Bam!

Would that really stop 'em? 

together..

been so busy lately.. working..
so tiring also... grrr..
and he's busy studying also..
nevertheless...
we still managed to spend some quality time together..
an update abt tuesday...

things go exactly as we planned it..
but there are reasons for everything that happen around us..
so as the day turned out..
i went over to his place for lunch..
his mum cooked for us..
met his dad for the first time..
a very nice man i must say..
was expecting a fierce looking one..
yup yup.. so i've met his whole family adi..

his mum's cooking is excellent..

i love the sambal..

spicy yet sweet and tempting..

yum... hehehe..

so after that took some buses down to clementi..

bought a bag from i dunno who..

the journey tire us out la.. even thou we just stood there and wait..

after that went down to queensway shopping centre to get his new pair of soccer boots..

i'm so happy for him..

the boots look so good on him..

weee... ;)

den walk walk around..

i wanted to buy some earrings and a pair of nice colourful beach shorts..

but i did get them..

just that he wanted to pay everything so badly..

even thou i wanted to pay them for myself..

by by... so stubborn of him la..

but then again..

he's so sweet........ to pay and be patient while i happily took my time to look around the shops..

hehehe..

after that we took the wrong bus home.. thanks to khad..

hehe.. took the bus from the wrong side.. den the journey was so long..

realised it so late..

fell asleep in the bus.. the journey was like 45 minutes?

yeah.. kept waking him up.. just in case he fell asleep and miss his stop..

went home and dropped dead..

we dint have our nite chat...

both so tired adi..

so that concludes my tuesday..

so tiring.. yet so fun..

cos i'm with him!!

hehehe..

i'm goin to work hard these holidays..

earning money..

den it'll be my turn to spend on him..

yeah.. i'd really like that..

i love you hunny..

and good night everyone.. sweet dreams..

Making The Most of Time

Like sand in an hour glass, so are the days of our lives.. Warghaha.. Okay...... Let's not think about how corny the sentence can be but instead, let's try to think how true it can be.. You see, time's life for most people in the world.. Therefore, in order not to waste lives, time have to be manage......properly.. In other words, planning's important.. Be it whether you're planning your day, your future or your husband.. Planning's important.. Let's take the latter for example.. Planning for your future husband.. How do you plan? If your answers are......make sure he's able to support you, make sure he's able to make you happy, mr. right, mr handsome, yadda yadda yadda......then I guess, you missed something out..

Firstly, be very simple.. Secondly, make a list about the things you wanna achieve in your life on a paper.. All the things which are important to you.. That will be your visions.. Lastly, find a guy who's not particular about brands, expensive clothings.. Find a simple guy who treasures you, who can be a good husband, a good father, whom you can trust.. He shouldn't be changing you but instead, he should allow you to be yourself because he should love you for who you are.. Basically, he should let you be presentable.. You don't need to change and that's important..

So now the most important thing's that you have visions.. Your future husband should share it or your husband visions and yours should be around the same.. It should travel on the same direction.. It should be on the same path.. Because if you can see, half way through in your life, you're gonna meet someone and from having just a single life, you'll be attached with another life.. That's the thing about divorcing.. Instead of combining the lives into one, both parties will be trying to change each others life just to suit their own.. Most of the time, that problem is one of the key causes of arguings and quarrellings and if divorce is the only answer, then I guess you have wasted those few years doing nothing about your vision......

So think about it.. Time is important afterall.. Make the most out of it..

Like sand in an ho......

Moans And Groans

Damn.

My whole body is aching.

Felt it when I woke up this morning.

It must have been the soccer training I had yesterday.

Ran here and there, with and without the ball.

Sigh.

And oh gosh.

I think I'm getting darker.

I was invited to a match in the morning at Bedok Reservoir before the soccer training.

I was in between the sticks.

It's been such a long time since I last played goalkeeper.

Late April?

When I dislocated my left elbow?

Yeah.

Anyways, it was a scorcher.

What more can I say?

The match was at 10am.

Sigh.

I'm not tanned.

It's just hereditary.

Once I get dark, I won't get my old complexion again.

I had maggi mee for breakfast.

No one cooked.

Mother went overseas.

Not really.

She went to Melaka. (I think.)

She went with my makcik-makcik and obek-obek.

You know what's that?

For those who are Boyanese, please shut up.

An Obek is a makcik or pakcik who is older than your parents.

Gee.

What a Boyan trivia.

I was still hungry after eating the mee.

I wanted to buy roti pratas or something which I can munch on, but I don't wanna waste my money.

I need them to buy something else.

Yeah.

You guys were right, money is a problem.

Imagine if I was a million dollar richer, I could buy a life-time of food supplies, but now I wish I was five dollar richer.

I just wanna fill up my stomach for now..

I played with my playstation this afternoon.

I was so lazy to do my homework.

Then she called me.

I thought it was Sathi who wanted to discuss about our semestral project.

She was going to study with Shu jing.

I didn't know whether I should come along and study with her.

I was so embarassed and shy about my new haircut and my new skin complexion.

It's not that bad.

I'm not dark ha anymorebut I'm just too self conscious.

I can spent hours on my hair.

Then I decided to come because she made me feel better about myself.

Hmmm.

That's what I like about her.

Anyways, Sathia did call and he told me about his idea.

He said we should make a safe.

Instead of a security alarm, there'll be a boxing gloves which will spring out to hit the thief.

I was like......

He thought we're supposed to use cardboards and styrofoams (is that correct?).

Then I reminded him that this isn' like any secondary school project.

We're gonna use metals, polymers, ceramics and composites.

Sathia, Sathia......

Hehehehe..

wat is she trying to do huh.........?

she is my friend...

not a very close one but we are hmmm.. just friends..

used to teach her tuition for a while..

chat wid her once in a while..

tot we had it all.. as in frens..

trust.

i dunno wat she's thinking..

maybe she tinks she's innocent.

she called shalih last nite..

for a......... chat?

hmmm.. makes me wonder really..

if there are any hidden intentions..

she knows he's my bf.

i know she's got a bf.

she used to have a crush on my bf.

but she nv admitted it anyway.

was a pretty long time ago.

our bfs used to be best friends.. until something happened..

and after the call.. she msged him good night..

the weird ting is..

she never msged me good night.. even as a fren..

well.. she nv msged me is more like it..

and all these times..

she always tells me she's holding on strongly to their relationship..

but lately..

y is she asking shalih if there are any cute guys in his skol?

and she still can say tt "when u are in skol, u are single"

like wat the hell is she trying to tell my bf here??

hello?? my boyfriend is attached to ME..

like how can i not get angry abt this matter?

girls out there.. wld u just let it be??

ok ok.. khad is just making assumptions here..

BUT

this is not the first time mind you..

last nite was not the first call

neither was it the first msg

hell i wld definitely love to tell her to buzz off..

but but but

i'd rather wait and see if she continues flirting with my bf..

if she doesnt, den i'll let it be..

dun wanna find trouble..

but if she continues..

i'll find some way to mess her around..

but until den, i'll just hide my jealousy and put on a mask..

like how the hell can i not be jealous huh..

grrr...

Mmm. 

The Review

I'm in love with you.

I know that we're already together as a couple but I don't think it's wrong to say that again.

You know, I've noticed some changes in my life ever since day one;

no doubt you're my first real girlfriend.

I can tell you how much happier I am now and that's a good thing.

Who I always think about is only you as if you're much more important than the people I know.

What I look out for are buses that go to your area because I feel that where you live is where I live.

What new feelings I've experienced are jealousy and protectiveness.

What I usually don't listen to is what I listen to now after we're together like songs from Daniel Bedingfield and etc.

Hehe.

Yeah, it's like that.

Things have been happening lately to me.

But no girl can take my heart away because it's already taken by a better person.

You.

So you don't ever need to get caught up in jealousy.

Okay, I guess that's all I have to say for now and if I continue further on explaining things, then this post will be like an O level essay.

So you take care now, okay?

Message me when you're bored.

I miss you.

Honestly.

our responsibilities

alrite.. she's my mum.. my biological mother..

but i wish now.. she's not..

i dont want to grow up being like her..

arent mums supposed to take care of their children?

arent they supposed to shower us with love and care?

arent they supposed to provide our basic necessities?

arent they supposed to understand us more than anyone else?

at least, arent they supposed to feed us?

so wat is my mother doing as a mum??

she doesnt give me a single cent..

she doesnt even pay for my transport fees..

or even my food?

or even my clothes..

or my hp bill..

gawd.. she doesnt even cook at home..

heck.. its been ages since she last did..

so lemme ask myself..

"does my mum love me?"

i dont know..

at all...

my dad?

is happy.. with his new wife and daughter..

i can see it in his eyes..

but that is not where i belong..

he's selfish..

only thinking abt himself and his money..

my mum?

leaves for work at 10 everyday..

she nv cleans the house..

she nv hangs the clothes..

she dont even fold her own clothes..

her reasons?

she's got 4 children who can take care of her adi..

so its me and my younger sister

who cleans the house,

folds her clothes,

cooks for everyone.

she says this house we're living in..

belongs to her..

we all are just "staying in"

until we're old enuf to move out..

goodness.. i soooooo cannot wait for the time when i can finally leave..

she complains..

day in day out..

no money

the house so messy

no one is at home

no one cooked

her job sucks

her colleagues suck

watever watever..

everytime i need money?

she says..

i'm not rich

go find your father and ask for money

wat happened to ur money?

y do u need to buy all this for?

bla bla bla..

gawd... its only 10 bucks..

i buy my own skol stationary, bags, notes.. watever..

even my older sister who's in university now..

is paying for her own skol fees..

and next year?

my adeq may be goin to poly.. i may be goin there too..

so how?

.

.

.

.

am i poor?

no i'm not..

i've got 2 tv

a new computer

lights

fans

scv

place to slp in

but y is my mum like this?

its always abt money, Money, MONEY..

money money money

always abt money..

y cant we human beings live without it..

sigh**

Just For 30 Freaking Minutes

I'm in school now.. Booked this computer for 30 freaking minutes.. Testing testing je macam mane nak pakai computer kat library.. My next class is at 1pm and the time now is 10.30pm.. Members ngah tidur kat library skarang and I don't know what else to say, so have a nice day..

Ps: I like my school......

..lah

skol holidays..

this saturday is de long awaited inter-college comp tt have been messing with my brain lately..

finally it'll be over!! in 2days.. grrr...

gonna start work on monday..

as a sales executive in training?

i tink tts wat my job is..

anyways.. to yanni..

its good to see that u've changed and we're happy for you.. :)

shalih wasn't really happy when i tagged at your board

cos i tink he dint want me to get into any more trouble like last time..

hahaha.. but i risked it anyway.. anyways babe.. we nv hated you yea..

and all the best wishes for u and nizam..

one week of holidays are gone......... just like that...

and fiona is back in singapore!!!!

big shoutout to welcome u back babe!!! miss you lots...

i hope australia have been nice to you.. ;)

will meet up soon with you yeah..

he's enjoying skol seh... well i tink so.. hehehehehe..

cant wait to start work..

chao!!

Those Fried Bird Parts
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Those Fried Bird Parts

The more I picked up the smell from the Old Chang Kee chicken wings in the plastic bag which I held yesterday night, the more hungrier I got.. I was on bus 26 which I took from Toa Payoh Bus Interchange.. I had to fetch those fried bird parts to her.. I bet she couldn't wait to tear those flesh apart from the bones.. She may sound like a monster when she's hungry but she's my monster with a big big heart..

O' Big Heart..

Eh, what's your name?

Well, I've already started school at Nanyang Polytechnic and what can I say, I'm beginning to like the school and course.. Oh and I like my class (MF0501).. I don't know about my classmates but I think we're united.. We hang out together, eat lunch together, go to lectures and tutorials together and even the boys are playing soccer after school.. Maybe we'll be like this in the early part of the year and who knows after that, we won't even say hello if we see each other anywhere in the campus.. That's what Sathia said.. I like him.. He's funny.. Makes our class laugh most of the time.. Kian Yong told me that Sathia had no life because he watch cartoons and water his plants the whole day everyday.. I should have kept a low profile about me being in the National U-17 as a third choice goalkeeper once because already Kian Yong's asking me to play for his team at Bedok Reservoir this Saturday.. Dang.. He should have invited James.. Haha.. The closest classmate for now.. He's cool.. A shameful Indian who thinks he's a nigger.. That's not an insult but it's what you call respect.. I went home with Isa today.. A cute malay guy with a mix Indian blood.. We were supposed to play soccer today but there was no one.. Besides, the weather was too hot.. I have no problem with him except that he lives near her.. So how, baby? Hehe.. Anyways, the others are Annie, Hanisah, Husni, Jasmine, Kelvin, Manoj, Stella.. There are more but I address them as 'Eh' because I still don't know their names.. Gotta meet the hungry snub now, so......

......ciao