our responsibilities

alrite.. she's my mum.. my biological mother..

but i wish now.. she's not..

i dont want to grow up being like her..

arent mums supposed to take care of their children?

arent they supposed to shower us with love and care?

arent they supposed to provide our basic necessities?

arent they supposed to understand us more than anyone else?

at least, arent they supposed to feed us?

so wat is my mother doing as a mum??

she doesnt give me a single cent..

she doesnt even pay for my transport fees..

or even my food?

or even my clothes..

or my hp bill..

gawd.. she doesnt even cook at home..

heck.. its been ages since she last did..

so lemme ask myself..

"does my mum love me?"

i dont know..

at all...

my dad?

is happy.. with his new wife and daughter..

i can see it in his eyes..

but that is not where i belong..

he's selfish..

only thinking abt himself and his money..

my mum?

leaves for work at 10 everyday..

she nv cleans the house..

she nv hangs the clothes..

she dont even fold her own clothes..

her reasons?

she's got 4 children who can take care of her adi..

so its me and my younger sister

who cleans the house,

folds her clothes,

cooks for everyone.

she says this house we're living in..

belongs to her..

we all are just "staying in"

until we're old enuf to move out..

goodness.. i soooooo cannot wait for the time when i can finally leave..

she complains..

day in day out..

no money

the house so messy

no one is at home

no one cooked

her job sucks

her colleagues suck

watever watever..

everytime i need money?

she says..

i'm not rich

go find your father and ask for money

wat happened to ur money?

y do u need to buy all this for?

bla bla bla..

gawd... its only 10 bucks..

i buy my own skol stationary, bags, notes.. watever..

even my older sister who's in university now..

is paying for her own skol fees..

and next year?

my adeq may be goin to poly.. i may be goin there too..

so how?

.

.

.

.

am i poor?

no i'm not..

i've got 2 tv

a new computer

lights

fans

scv

place to slp in

but y is my mum like this?

its always abt money, Money, MONEY..

money money money

always abt money..

y cant we human beings live without it..

sigh**