i hate this.........

so he's stopping me from scolding people..
and he's not allowing me to explain myself first..
and it seems obvious he's bent on changing my attitude..

y does every boyfriend i have seem to like doing this?
y cant i be mean and ugly and hypocritical and cynic and watever of everything??
y cant i have the bad side of everyone?
i hate this..
a while longer and i start to let go..
its not worth it..