You Know What? I Had It Again

You know what, everytime I'm ill, everytime, I'll always have this dream, always.. A nightmare.. I'll always be this tiny boy surrounded by two giant adults scolding and shouting at each other and the terrible noise and sound that they're making are causing great pain not only to my ears but to my heart and mind as well.. Whenever I spoke up, they'd just scolded and shouted at me back.. The pain became from bad to worst and it rendered my helpless cries.. Genarally speaking, it just felt terribly wrong.. It felt scary.. It felt uncomfortable.. It felt confusing.. It felt like the pressure's coming down onto you...... Well that was then, when I was young,

but you know what, after a long while, I just had the dreaded dream again......

Funny how I dreamt that when I'm not even sick..

I can't really intepret the dream.. I thought I would never dream it again.. I thought it was over because my parents was quarrelling about me one day.. All the noise that I heard and so I thought again that my dream was dejavu-ed, but how can it be dajavu-ed when I just had the dream again and this time, when I'm not ill.. Thinking about how I felt in the dream was chilly..

Hmmm.. I'll just have watch my life carefully these days.. Till then..

With love..