multiples of me..

its difficult to tink straight when u've got voices and many many thoughts running thru ur head all at once..
was trying to explain to my teachers abt how i vision the upcoming competitions will be goin..
a whole surge of babbles and gibberish juz shoot itself out with no organisation of thots..
and of course they dun understand wat was running in my head..
how fast my thoughts go and how fast i speak are juz out of pace with each other..
so i had to repeat myself many times and slower wid each repetition..
tiring yes.. mentally draining yes..
not to mention the poetry competition coming up.. emotional trauma in me..

been having difficulty controlling my thots for the past few weeks.. but lately i got a bit better..
at least i understand wat's goin on in my head and why..
its juz so hard to explain..
u may even tink i'm goin nuts..
i tink i am.. cos i'm hearing my thots echoing louder in my head everytime i self-reflect or tink..
and with each tot, i understand.. i'm able to control myself better..
to be more patient, to be......... a better person..
i'm trying my best.. trying hard..
hopefully i can decipher and unravel this mystery that is happening to me soon..
before i breakdown into who-knows-wat..
looking on the bright side..
its helping me cope wid stress..
opening up my mind..
not to mention the workload tts awaiting me for tuesday..
tank goodness monday's a holiday.. ;)



goin to visit my granny tml..
my father's mom..
the one who approved of his marriage to my step-mum..
how cld she... sigh.............. but the past is done and cannot be changed..
so now i juz wanna forget all abt the grudges and move on..
to forgive and forget..
and she's getting old too.. wats the point being angry wid an old lady?
i love her anyway.. she's the only granny i have left.. sigh.....
looking forward to seeing her, smelling the musty odour of old people..
gotta be understanding.. its not terrible.. its quite welcoming and warm..
unique.. so yea.. tts my saturday morning..

nth else to say.. just that i love you baby... lllooooovvvvveeee yyyooouuuuu....... ;)))