scramblings of my heart

goodbyes are not heard off..
last wishes are not within hearing..
u drifted off
leaving me here all alone
hanging from the thin coil u wound around my waist
where once
u wound ur arm tightly
not letting me out of reach
onceu hugged me u kissed me
u promised me i'd be urs forever
and u'll be mine for eternity
but u left
empty promises
whispers in the dry wind
husky voices haunting
repeating every word
echoing the presence of untouched memories
hidden away deep in the abyss
where now i cowered
afraid of the light
where i fell thru
i'd been hoping
i'd been wishing
that somehow one day
u'll come backto me
and be mine for the rest of my life
but i juz cant ignore
this painful tugging at the back of my mind
that i know
u'd never ever turn back
that my wish wld never ever come true
and it hurts so much
when the tugging gets stronger
everydayso much more unbearable
it hurts juz so bad......


i know i hadnt been perfect
we're made to make mistakes
we're created to learn
call me a bitch
juz cos i talk too much
call me a slut
cos i flirt wid others in ur presence
our actions
are not defined by words
by degrees of extremes
flirting excessively u may say
but the meaning
is easily defined
in the oxford dictionary
but the question is..
is that reali wat i'm doin?
words.. juz words..
floating in the air
carried by the wind
we're satisfied
juz hearing wat we want to hear
from the others..
i love you
is much easily expressed
but do u reali?
do u reali reali love me?


this is juz a thought expressed from me.. its got nth to do wid anyone.. if it does, den i apologise for the reality it comes wid..