grrr....... pms.....

so i juz experienced the worst season of pms in my whole life..
it being mixed with skol stress..
grrrr.....
i'm so sori for being so temperamental to everyone lately..

to my classmates whom i've been throwing my tempers all about:
i'm so sori... but seriously.. u guys are juz plain annoying.. hopefully next week of skol wld be a better one yups..

to my darling nicole who's turning 18!!!:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISSY!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!! its juz so unfair tt my birthday is at the end of the skol term!!! hehehee... not to mention i have A'LEVEL EXAM PAPER ON THAT DAY!!!!! its ok.. i'll celebrate it wid my chemistry paper... hehehehe... i know u're goin to chiong go clubbing now tt u're 18.. so dont forgot abt your darling sister here who have to wait for november.. hehehehe... HAF FUN!!! love you!!!

to my darling boyfriend who have been in the worst part of my pms:
i'm so so so sori dear... i hope my moods dont continue...
i cant help it... i'm juz so sori.......... and i do want to spend time with you...
so being pissed at you last nite wasnt caused by pms.. and thanks for not telling me earlier tt u haf to go home early yea.. grrr... if i had known.. i shldnt haf even bothered..

so now... the most important part of this post is dedicated to my beloved girlfriend,, joyce huang....
ok girl.. i juz read ur post and i guess i do feel sori for ur life being like that..
and there's been smth tt i reali wanting to ask u but i juz dunno how to put it..
i know u, me, nic and jing haf been best friends for like............. 5 yrs?? ok maybe 4..
but somehow i juz dun understand y u feel awkward wearing a bikini wid us..
ok maybe its cos u feel uncomfortable abt ur boobies..
tt i understand.. and maybe its also cos some of us seems to like teasing u too much abt juz... u..
ok ok.. i tink i understand y u feel awkward.. but i juz wanna let u know tt we wldnt have been best friends at all if we dint love you for who u are..
u may tink u're fat, short, dark or tanned or watever la..
and i can still rmb how it used to piss all of us when u always seem to ask whether u look fat..
and we always answer NO..
and have you ever tot why we answered tt? honestly??
becos in our eyes.. u are nv tt fat, ugly girl u always seem to tink u are..
we dint come together as best friends becos we're good looking, tall, have many bfs or watever..
i mean i understand y u feel inferior ard us.. i guess u juz cant help it..
u cant help being different from us..
but its alrite woman.. we still love you.. and we always will..
and u have that beauty in you tt none of us have..
u are able to keep ur cool all the time.. unlike me or nicole..
and u are able to fit in wid any crowd..
and u're juz so cheerful and bubbly all the time..
and u're always there for us when we're in deep shit..
u have a strong sense of empathy too..
these are juz some of the many many qualities u have..
we're all different.. and u being different from us juz makes u all the more beautiful..
but maybe u feeling inferior doesnt come from us only..
it may be coming from the other people around u..
and like i always tell u young lady..
when pp are trying to bring you down girl, rmb.. no one can do that except yourself..
and tt is when u ALLOW them too..
dont listen to wat they say.. u know u're juz goin to suffer if u do.. ;P

juz an advise from me..
instead of comparing yourself to others..
y dont u spend some time reflecting on your actions and your qualities..
build up tt confidence in you..
and you'll begin to love yourself more..
;) and one more ting..
being fat doesnt make you ugly...
and you are cute!!! that bracey smile of yours is nicer den the smile u use to have back in secondary skol.. reali!!!

tts all for you woman... love you!!!!