i've made up my mind..

after being unsatisfied with the courses offered at in NUS..
i've decided..
i'm not goin to the faculty of chemistry at NUS..
neither am i goin to any faculty there..
i've decided.. and thought over it lately..
i'm going to Nanyang Poly..
to take a 3-yr diploma course in Physiotherapy..
yup..
tts it..
its either speech therapy or being a radiologist..
but i decided i cant live without being around people..
i need to be with people..
not in the laboratory doing research for the rest of my life..
its surprising that no university in singapore offers a degree in physiotherapy..
the only universities are in UK and Australia..
i dont want to go to Australia..
i just dont like it there... too much singaporeans maybe..
UK sounds better..
but its 3 yrs down the road..
hopefully i make it..
no no.. i'll definitely make it there..
DEFINITELY..
yup.. ;P
wish me luck on my journey...





so my baby needs to break free..
i'm feeling the strain too
draining my resources..
i'm not even doing my homeworks properly
sigh....
so much for a'levels..
he's having fun
with his cousins, families and relatives..
thats good to hear.. at least he's not rotting at home..
i'm feeling neglected
feeling weird cramps lately
could be due to that period of the month
feeling neglected, rejected, useless, lazy...
extremely plain lazy..
and spendthrift..
i hate myself..
grrr....
guess i need to break free too...
i know i shouldnt feel this way
when he tries constantly to keep in touch with me
even when his prepaid is low..
i know.. i understand..
but i cant help feeling all these..
i'm just human..
u cant help feeling angry even though u know u shouldnt be..
maybe i need to get back in touch with my real self..
with that old personal khad that was so loud and outspoken
and so patient and understanding.
i'm losing my temper over my own stupid mistakes all the time
but i'm slowly accomplishing smth
slowly...
i have not even started my revision for my mid-yrs..
sigh.....
yeah..............
i tink i need a break from all these..
from relationships and school work
and get back in touch with ME..
i'll talk to u abt all these things baby..
dont worry... we juz dun haf the time to talk abt this now..
tml maybe..
hopefully...