when everyday becomes a tedious workout, i'm starting to wonder i even bother to make tings rite..

it hit me HARD.. painful realisation..
that.. in life.. we are NOT BORN FREE...
there is no such ting as free will..
dere is no such ting as being free..
we wld nv be free from problems,
illness, sorrows..
we are brought to life in an environment
not of our choice..
if we had free will?
we can choose where to live..
choose our parents..
choose our life de way we want it to be..
it'd be perfect.. we wldnt be complaining..
if we had a choice,
we wld haf been able to change the past..
correct mistakes..
stop the unwanted..
however.. in this world we live in..
we are bound, by rules, laws that govern our lives..
we are made to think
that we are free.. the environment we live in
made us believe that we haf a choice..
freedom of speech..
free to speak our mind..
but is it always true?
and when we want something to happen,
smth to be done,
does it always go our way?

in conclusion..
i'd been enlightened..
that all of us..
are not born free..
the fantasy of being able to decide everything..
will always remain a reflection in the mirror..
choices, wishes, demands..
they dun always come true..
it is rather disappointing..
to know how much the reality can hurt..
we all believe in our rights to make choices..
to decide who we want to be..
but is it reali how life works.....?


















i've been having a tiring week..
i'm so worn out..
today was frustrating..
teaching her felt like teaching a stubborn mule..
yes i understand.. bla bla bla..
a few minutes later..
how to do this question again ah?
sigh..
my adeq also another problem..
her fren came over..
serious dose of attitude problem..
u see.. she's got a whole head of super long hair..
being the curious people we are..
we juz had to enquire..
and that snobbish 15 yr old..
was combing her hair..
and throwing the stray strands down on my house floor..
i saw wat she did and she acted as if its her house..
she dint even bother picking them up!!
and de way she talk to my sister..
so vulgar!!! i juz kip quiet only..
my sister is supposed to teach her...
and dere she was acting like a princess scolding my sis back..
first impression of her was bad..
stuck up young girl..
her freaking hp was so damn bloody noisy..
wat a watever she is..
i cannot be bother to label her..

and i haven even done my own skol work...
damn.. i'm so way lagging..
need to stop giving tuition i tink..
i dunno..
maybe i shld..
aiyo... and that woman ah..
so impatient abt my kitten!!!!
i feel like juz shuffing the kitten down her throat and say..
"nah!! give u adi.. satisfied now..?"
hai.. so frustrating la...........
the kitten not even 1 mth old...
haiyo......

and my sister again..
so rude!!!
no manners.. talk like as if she damn big ah..
feel like slapping her mouth..
talk like minah..
in front of her fren act very big ah..
scold here scold dere..
wah lau.......................

and that bloody woman..
for goodness sake..
i cannot hang out wid her for long..
i'll go mad...
seriously..
she's juz the type of fren..
that is juz a fren..
nth more than that..
she's got a big mouth anyway..
cannot tahan her...
maybe i shld stop giving her tuition from next month onwards..
very hard to teach..
i'm overworking myself..
i need to let loose..



tired..
tired..
tired..







and i miss my baby..
miss you..