yesterday and today

after By came back from sentosa.. he came over to my place..
use my comp a while, chat wid my mum and sis..
i changed and we went to esplanade..
beautiful place.. we enjoyed ourselves ah..
den on the way back..
we discussed abt wats goin to happen in the coming yr..
how are we goin to spend time together..

time is running out soon...
we meet each day..
yearning for the next..
not wanting everything to end so soon..
but i only haf another month..
to spend it wid u..
i dun wan to risk it..
losing u..
not seeing u for days..
y does it haf to be cos of my studies
a'levels..
i cant risk it either..
my future..
my family's hopes and dreams..
my dreams..
*sigh*
been clouding my mind..
all this issue abt studies..
expectations..
where do my social life stand
in importance beside all this?
to be wid the man i love so much..
who means the world to me..
and juggling my skol life..
hockey, mcs, studies..
so hard to decide...
in the end..
i still dun wan to lose u..